caring, optimistic

In the past I’ve taken a lot of time putting down into words what I’m looking for, but the opposite always occurs, so I’m going to try this in reverse. So, here goes….. I don’t want a man who’s honest, loyal and a one-woman man. He should not have faith in Christ. He should not have a profile photo, after all as a woman I should just take what I can get and not care if the man is attractive in my eyes. He should be looking for the next instead of the last and want to spend as little time with me as possible. I want a man who will BS at every opportunity, one who will disregard my feelings, desires and goals. I want only lame excuses for his actions; never real reasons and he should at every turn do the opposite of what he says. This man should believe he’s a stud because he can meet women on line and try to keep as many on his list as possible, and work as many active profiles as he can keep track of, also the focus and goal should not be on a good 1 on 1 relationship.If I don’t show interest, he should feel I should want him just because I’m single and he’s available, regardless of the fact that I might just not be attracted to him. He will expect me to believe everything he says in spite of his actions. He will be unavailable to me at times that cause suspicions and will expect me to pretend stupidity and ignore all red flags. He should enjoy drugs and drunkenness it’s a very flattering attribute. He should be a couch potato, just plain flabby, totally out of shape and have no energy. He should have no teeth or at least not many, not even false ones and PROUD of it. There should be absolutely no passion and if by chance there is intimacy, it should be totally one sided, after all women don’t really enjoy that sort of pleasure, it’s all about the man. This man should never have me on his mind unless no one else is available and he needs company. If he becomes upset because he’s caught doing something unexceptable he should hack my mail and also send really stupid e-mails to me filled with his tirades and immature remarks. He’ll know how to be hurtful and do it often. He’ll be really practiced at saying …I didn’t do that! And always turn everything so that it’s my fault.

Your ideal partner and the qualities you are looking for:-
As dawn whispers in, silence of night once filled with nothingness fades into memory as your presence becomes almost visible in the softest of blues and white. You stand as though you’ve always been within me and I know, even though we’ve yet to meet, in spirit you always have been. My eyes rise to your vision as I watch your thoughts become my desire. I feel your passion fall over me as though the heavens have blessed my soul, and for the moment the illusion of you is more than real to me. I see you there and feel you here. I tilt my head upward, and as I open my mouth with no words speak, I taste the falling rain that nurtures the moment. My hair falls from my shoulders and sways across my back, liquid with longing, and I feel your fingers at the nape of my neck, and your palm at my hip. I feel the direction of your intent as I turn to you and lower my face into submission and a flowing rhapsody of the softest of blues and white enshrouds the disillusions of reality I willfully entertain. Your fingers lift my chin and as I look up to you I find myself embraced inside your will, captured within a moment of revere. I feel the music of your soul filtering deep inside my own. I silently weep. A Symphony of emotions envelops my existence and I transcend even further above reality as my mind slips willfully past illusion onto a Plato of self-encounter. Feeling myself begin to slip helplessly back into reality, I look upon us and again I weep. I long so to be with you, inside myself, and still looking in. I know you will come, I know you are there inside the softest of blues and white. I know I will find you and the nothingness, only my imagination eludes, will no longer bind me.