Blonde

Brown

compassionate, quirky, fun, shy, annnnd creative :)

"Who are you?" you ask. That's a very good question. As I sit here thinking about all the cliche answers...I am a daughter, mom, student, friend, blah...blah...blah, I bore myself just thinking about it and it surely won't grab your attention. None of these things pinpoint that special.....*sparkle*. So, I will try to describe myself and before I begin, I ask that you don't take this too seriously, I am a human just like you and I am sure we are all these things if not more... I am a twenty-six year old woman, with brownish blondish color hair and spunky style who feels lonely sometimes. I do not ask to be understood because I can't even understand myself. I want to be accepted, I ask to be accepted as who I am. I sometimes question my existence, my meaning. I want to know exactly what the "Real world" is and how do I get there? I feel happy with no shoes on and I get lonesome in a crowded room. Sometimes my heart aches and I cry myself to sleep. When I'm alone I can hear my children's laughter echoing in my mind, and it makes me smile. I love to write, it soothes my soul. I don't know how to sing, but I try anyways. I find myself on a journey from girl to woman. A woman who rushes through days and stays up at night. Oh yes, I am... A daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a student, a young girl, and a grown woman. I am confident and unsure, terrified and excited. I am loving, and caring, and thoughtful, and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, and careful and careless. I am broken and whole, I am misunderstood, misguided, and misled. I am hard working and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on stars and dream my dreams. I pray to God and cry my tears. I smile on the outside, while I'm dying on the inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. I walk on eggshells, and I walk on fire. I believe in passion, and even true love. I love you and I push you away. I want you but not so close. I am everything and nothing all at once, but there is so much more. Please don't try to understand me, or judge too quickly. My name doesn't matter and my heart is open. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Okay, so now that I got the *sparkle* out of the way, there is so much more to me that I find it hard to even begin to prison it with words! I love to laugh and act stupid a lot of the time, or what my kids would say is a dork. I am very sarcastic and like to find the irony in life. I want a guy who can make me laugh, it's a must. I love to have fun, even if it's just sitting around cracking jokes and making fun of each other! I have a pretty different personality. I am your typical emotional female, yet I have a heart that mimics the Grand Canyon. I was born with an enormous need for affection and a terrible need to give it. (Quoted by the Great Audrey Hepburn) I love the color pink, yet I decorate in black and white. I love to shop and be girly, yet I love to get dirty with guns and cars. I am most comfortable and happy in my blue jeans, t-shirt and boots doing something outdoors, but I can be just as equally happy dressing up in heels and going out for a night on the town. I am a walking contradiction. I wear a cross around my neck and go to church on Sunday, but not afraid to let loose and have fun come Monday. I was forced into maturity by having my children at a young age but I wouldn't change it for the world. Being a single mom has made me stronger and more determined to prove to everyone who doubts me that I CAN do it! I just moved back to AZ (I actually grew up here) from Arkansas, yes I have a slight accent! lol I call Prescott Valley home! I am currently in school for something that I don't want to do, but I am in the process of figuring out what I want to be when I grow up. I pay my bills and support my kids by myself, so don't worry I'm not a free loader....I would much rather be independent and struggle then to freeload and be comfortable. I guess that is it for now, if you would like to know more, then I guess the "taking-the-time-to-get-to-know-me" ball is in your court now.