Auburn/Red

Blue

OUTGOING,OUTSPOKEN,REAL,EMOTIOINAL,HONEST

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe well if u think u know me u r wrong...no one knows the real me due to the wall i put up to everyone...even my family....but i am writing this to let people start to know the real me and choose if u want to continue to know the rest...people ask wat my problem is...my problem is that i am scared of everything from little things like bridges and elevators to the big things like being alone and being hurt...i am done with all the stupid shit...my other problem is when i feel like someone is gonna hurt me i hurt them first....and i do stupid shit that i know will mess everything up...and i am scared that if i keep it up it will ruion my life...i finally found a guy so sweet...that i know i need to change cause i dont want to mess nothin up...i have disorder such as bipolar and depression and anxiety and odd and ptsd...i wish i didnt but i do and i know it aint an excuse but my depression and bipolar have a big part in my life and cause me to act out...i take meds and when i dont take them i go crazy and freak out...i am an ex-cutter....and i have tried to commit suicide....my advice for anyone who have thos same problems it aint worth it u may be helping urself feel better but u are making others feel bad....ive learned that...i am adopted....and i hate my real parents for not wanting me....for putting that hurt on me at such a young age...RIP DAD,GMA BETTY, AND GMA FILE